28. Love Starts With L

Her Broken Cries

~MARO'S POV~

All I could do… was cry my heart out… Kira had taken L from me, and… now

nothing mattered to me anymore… I laid on my bed all curled up as my screams and

cries of pain continued. Tears soaked my face and I didn't even bother to wipe them

away… I think this pain was worse than a heart attack. I would have rather died of a heart

attack then be going through this.

My heart raced as the hours went on. Nothing mattered to me anymore… I just

wanted… to die. I didn't want to live without L. It was like living in total darkness, blind

and lonely. I had never loved anyone like I loved him, and I would never love someone

like that ever again.

I slowly sat up and the tears continued to flow from my face. I stared at my knife

on my bed stand. I should do it… I had nothing else to live for anyways. Then I

remember that the Chief said Kira made L kill himself with a knife. I would do the

same…

I grabbed the knife and held it to my throat, but… for some reason… I was…

hesitating? I had never feared death before. The only time I never wanted to die was

when L came into my life, but he was… gone. So why did I not want to do this? Then I

realized why. I needed to kill Kira first…

I raised the knife again and with one swipe I cut my hair in half. The long strands

fell to the bed and then I raised my knife again as I slashed my wrist. I yelped in pain

since I hadn't done this in along time. I slashed myself again and I yelped in pain as I

once again felt the knife run deep into my skin as the cold blade forced my skin apart and

drew out blood.

I repeated this process a few times until both my wrists were covered in blood. It

dripped all over the bed and I ran it through my bangs to get rid of the blond happiness

and to bring back the emo girl I was. I quickly changed into my old emo clothes then tore

apart my new ones. I didn't want anything to remind me of my happiness… I wanted all

my anger and sorrow to go to Kira.

After awhile of going on a rampage I stomped in front of the mirror and stared

back at my old self. Then… I saw something… I looked down at my chest to find a

necklace with L's symbol as a charm. I looked at it confused and took it off as I stared at

it. I watched as the light shone around the silver charm.

"L… Did you… know this was going to happen…?"

He probably had put it on my while I was asleep. Maybe it was that night he

started to act weird… It didn't matter though, I would never know. I put the necklace

back on and smiled a bit as tears came back to my eyes.

"I miss you… L…"

~~~~A FEW DAYS LATER~~~~L'S FUNERAL~~~~

~REICHERU'S POV~

Today reminded me so much of the day L had died… It was pouring out and

everything seemed gray. Everyone wore black and I had an arm around Maro as we

listened. I was surprised that she hadn't cried yet but she didn't speak a word. Light tried

to comfort her and the beginning but all she did was give him a look of pure hatred.

I was sad when I had found Maro those few days back and she was all emo

again… I couldn't blame her, Maro had it tough. The thing I hated the most was to hear

her cry. She had always told me that she never cried because if she did she would never

stop. I always thought it was just an excuse to act tough, but after seeing her like this… I

now understood…

I felt her as she began to shake. I looked down at her in her black dress. She had

brought blood red roses that she held closely. She didn't make a single sound, and I

wondered how much she was crying on the inside. After awhile they brought out

Watari's coffin, and slowly later they brought out L's.  As soon as Maro saw it she fell

apart. She gasped and quickly pulled away from me as she ran off.

"Maro!" I called, but she was out of hearing range.

I sighed. I wanted to go after her but I really didn't want to bother her. Matsuda

came over and hugged me.

"I'm sorry about this Reicheru."

I looked up at him and smiled sadly. "There's nothing we can do…"

I felt someone put a hand on my shoulder and I looked over to see Light.

"I'm going to go talk to her."

"Uh… I don't think that's a good idea!"

He smiled a bit. "I'll be right back." He then turned and ran after Maro.

"He's just going to make her even more upset…" I mumbled.

"Light has a way with people." Matsuda said.

I sighed and rested my head on his shoulder as we watched them begin to burry

the coffins.

~MARO'S POV~

I sat on a bench as I let the rain pour on me. I began to shake from the cold that I

hadn't felt in awhile… I looked down at my necklace as tears began to once again roll

down my face. I sat there in pure silence until I heard someone walking towards me. I

thought about lashing out at the person, but it might be Reicheru… I waited until the

person sat next to me and put a hand on my shoulder. I didn't want to look at them, and

see the sadness in my eyes.

"I know you loved him…" Light said.

I gasped as I quickly turned and whacked his hand off my shoulder. "Get away

from me!" I snapped.

He sighed. "Maro, I know you hate me, but, please, I want to help you."

I glared at him. "No you don't… I know you're Kira…! I might not have the

proof yet but… I will!"

He smiled sadly. "I'm not Kira, Maro. I-"

"Don't say my name like that!" I screamed as I covered my ears.

L used to say my name like that… I didn't want light to talk to me like that… or

anyone else. He gently brushed my hair and I growled at him.

"I want to help you… I know you loved Ryuzaki but… you need to move on."

I slowly lifted my head then glared at him with pure hate. "No! I'll never love

anyone else! I've tried, and I've never loved anyone like I've loved L!"

He put his hand on my shoulder. "I'm a lot like Ryuzaki."

I stood and smacked him across the face. "You'll NEVER be like L!" And with

that I sprinted off.

~~~~10 DAYS LATER~~~~

It was a sunny day for once and the Task Force sat in the main room of

headquarters. We all sat on the couches around the table as we looked through the news

paper's. They had a lot of stuff about Watari, but had nothing about L…

"It's been ten days since Ryuzaki's funeral," said Matsuda. "Looks like we're not

going to die after all."

"We know Watari's true identity now," said Aizawa as he read through the news

paper. "But we never found out about who Ryuzaki really was."

"That's true… Who would have guessed that Watari as actually a famous

inventor."

"The paper says he funded orphanages around the world using the money he

earned from his patents." Aizawa placed the paper on the table.

"He was a very nice guy…" Reicheru whimpered.

"But it doesn't help us now. We can't continue to use this place as our base with

L and Watari gone." Aizawa sat back and crossed his arms.

I hated hearing them talk about L… It hurt so much…

"Hm… Light, how's it going?" asked the Chief.

Light was over on L's computer… He began to type. "I should be able to transfer

the system and most of the information out of here by tonight. It's weird though… I

almost feel as if I'm stealing. I've created a voice filter identical to the one Ryuzaki used.

We can use it to make the police think L's still alive and give them orders like we've

been doing so far but… Who's going to take the place of L? Where will we work from

and what will we do with the  notebook?"

I gasped and glared at him. Even though he couldn't see me, I bet he knew I

looked really pissed right now.

"Come on, what are you talking about Light? You're the only one who can take

on the roll of L."

I closed my eyes and shook my head. I don't want to hear this! No one can

replace L! NO ONE!

"I dunno… Ryuzaki was killed by Kira because he challenged him. And that's not

something I'm eager to do. Besides, I'd be fooling the people of the world."

"I understand how you feel, but you're the only one of us who can do this," said

Aizawa.

"That's right! Even Ryuzaki said so himself! 'You would be capable of

succeeding L.'"

I had had enough of this… I quickly stood up and glared at Matsuda. "No one

could ever succeed L! Especially Light! L thought Light was Kira, he wouldn't want him

to do this!"

Matsuda gasped and rubbed his neck. "Oh… Sorry Maro…"

I growled and quickly stomped off.

~REICHERU'S POV~

"Maro!" I called, but she was already gone. I sighed.

"I think we shouldn't talk about this when she's around," said the Chief. "She's

going through some tough times right now."

"Who knew she had a crush on Ryuzaki," said Aizawa.

"More liked 'loved' Ryuzaki…" I mumbled.

"Anyways, will you do it Light?" Matsuda continued.

"Umm… Alright…" He turned around in his chair to face us. "But I won't be like

Ryuzaki. I won't take big risks like him like challenging Kira head on to get clues. It's

just not me…"

"Yeah. It's probably better if we play it safe," said the Chief. "Ryuzaki may have

been a little too confrontational…"

I was really glad Maro wasn't here right now. She would have thrown a fit. But…

who could blame her?

"In that case, I'll be able to do the same kind of work using both this computer

and my own." Light said as he went back to typing around on the computer. "In fact, I'll

be able to act as L in the comfort of my own room. I can be Watari as well. But… it will

be difficult to pull off with Mom and Sayu around…" Light turned back to us. "Things

would be easier if I could rent a one bedroom apartment."

"Well… considering your age it wouldn't look strange if I let you move out on

your own."

"Good idea." I said.

"Yeah! And we could use Light's new apartment as our new headquarters!"

shouted Matsuda.

"All we have to figure out now is what to do with the notebook," said Aizawa.

"It's really not that difficult," said Light. "There's five of us here, and we know

none of us will use the notebook so we'll just have one of us take it somewhere so no one

will find it."

We all looked at each other and Matsuda slowly raised his hand, which made me

giggle a bit.

"Please Chief, its got to be you," said Aizawa.

Matsuda gasped and rubbed the back of his neck. "Y-Yeah Chief! We can count

on you! You're a pillar of justice after all!" He laughed nervously.

"You want me to…? Oh alright."

"We'll avenge Ryuzaki together!"

"Yeah!" I cheered.

"Yeah. Kira is still out there somewhere. We'll catch him, that's a promise," said

the Chief.

We all nodded in agreement.

"Well why don't we have a little party celebrating Light becoming L number 2?!"

"Quit fooling around! Now's not the time for stuff like that!" Aizawa snapped.

I started to space out and I swore I saw L standing there in is hunched over way

with his thumb to his lips. But when I went to look… he wasn't there…

~~~~A FEW DAY LATER~~~~

~MARO'S POV~

I stared at the TV in pure hatred. Kira had killed hundreds of criminals over the

past few days. He even managed to kill Wedy and Aiber. This proved even more that

Light had to be Kira… He was the only one that they got so comfortable with that they

actually told them their names. I wondered home many people were suffering like I

was… Even the whole Yotsuba group had been killed.

"I'll kill you… Kira… If it's the last thing I do." I growled.